In Days of Late

I know that usually I write about my love for a certain boy - but I thought I really ought to be more journally :). Lately my life has had no structure - well let me rephrase; no sensible, productive structure...

Since I was old enough to work, I have had a job, and school - where it applies - and lately... the past 2-3 weeks, I HAVE HAD NOTHING TO DO. Nothing that needed to be done, other than the loads of dishes or clothes I have washed, and bathing of course - that's always important, but I have had nothing to study, or work on... and frankly, I don't like it.

I am ready for everyone to come back into town for school - and I am sooo thankful for my dear friend that I have wonderful couch chats - which elicit smiles, blushes, and tears- and random happy meal gatherings and movie nights galore... We two are absolutely amazing, don't you know...LOL

I'm honestly ready to have a constant schedule again. Right on cue, come Monday, order will be thrown at me with hours of work put into analytical chemistry and my job. I honestly cannot wait!

PS...though a couch chat today I got interested in crazy sex laws throughout the States... you should totally look them up - it is quite insane...

Possession of Smiles


Right when I wake, your voice is in my head
Your "goodnight, I love you babe,"
Creates a trail of happiness across my lips. :)

Sitting in class, I think of a silly thing you did,
The time we were on the beach, when you sang ever so loudly with your kite in hand,
A grin of love is on my face. :)
(my teachers probably think I'm insane, smiling at teachings of electron flow)

Walking across campus - the perfect time to think,
My music lands on a song of memories,
Our song reminds me of that first waking up beside you, the first happiest moment of my life,
I cannot help but smile. :)

You constantly make me smile you see...
Every day... thoughts of you keep me happy...
I know sometimes I'm easily bothered, but you will always have my heart,
And my smiles belong to you. :)

<3 I love you! :)

Another Day of Heartwrench...

Here I am sitting... alone in my apartment... again all that fills my mind is memories of us... i miss you... you are way too far away. I'm listening to our song, trying hard not to cry. It's so unfair that the one person who loves me like I've always dreamt of has to be so many miles away. I do believe God works in mysterious ways and that everything happens for a reason, and I am supposed to be learning from this... I think it makes me appreciate you even more. I love you. Every second away breaks my heart. I can't wait for the day that we actually get to come home to each other. Love is such a double edged sword. I cried from being alone with no one, but this, this thing we all crave, this love I'd do anything for, because you're worth it, it totally hurts 1,000,000 times more. I miss you... and I love you more than I could ever promise...